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Labels ??? I am who I am.

I am uncomfortable with setting labels onto myself.  Labels lay heavy on my heart.  I don’t have anything against labels such as Christians, Atheists, Muslims and what not.  However for me I am what I am and that feels comfortable to me.  With this perspective I can look at others on an individual basis.  What are you as an individual?  What does your heart desire and your being yearn for? 

Organized religion may save a person’s life and offer great comfort.  To another it is a reason to disagree with others who are different from them in beliefs or other things.  So I can’t say nor do I want to say that it is right or wrong, good or bad.  It is in my opinion what one does with it. 

I feel like the whole world is my congregation and all of humanity is my brothers and sisters.  I feel others joys and suffering inside my heart.  To me humanity is a collective organism, like a body.  A collective soul some may say.  Why can’t humanity find unity while allowing for others beliefs to be respected.  Peoples beliefs and perspectives vary depending on their inner evolution and development.  It is a state of the heart thing, I think.  As love flourishes inside a person view change and the important thing become clearer.  Who cares what someone believes if it does not enter the heart.  Unity will never be found on a mental sphere, only on the level of intentions and emotions.  The true heart of the matter.

Find your way, your truth and live it.  It is fine to be certain in your faith, but the moment that others become in opposition to you because of that belief, I become weary.  Love others the way you would want to be loved.  Treat others the way you would want to be treated.  Does anyone one organization own the rights to these words?  Or does all of humanity own the rights to these words.  If we all lived by these words alone unity between us, nature and the great mystery of life and creation could have a chance to flourish.

No one can see the quality of another’s devotion.  No one can see the heart of another, only the one who created the heart and soul can and should be the one reading them.


By: Jason-John Swartz


Ramblings In My Head And Stirrings In My Heart

Oh Great and Glorious Mystery of Mysteries, my Heavenly Father.  Pour forth from your mercy thy Living Word, your Eternal Wisdom my glorious Redeemer.  Let your wisdom emanating from thy throne of Eternity, shine upon me as to baptise me in your spirit of truth and understanding.  Give me a pure heart that loves without reason. 

For it is with  the pure of heart that the living word dwells within.  It is not what the mind perceives our the intellect believes that is our salvation, but when an honest heart in man comes to you in need to be freed.  Who claims to know the heart of another?  Is it not the maker of hearts who judges His creation?  Then let me not judge others, but instead I invite your living word into my heart and ask for my redemption to be revealed to me daily.   I ask this of you so that I may daily be renewed into your mercy and grace and be transformed into a light upon this world.  So that through the love you give me I may give to others and they may know that our Living God has truly come to dwell with his people.  Give me an appetite to serve you with all my heart and let this be my bread from heaven.  Bless me with a heart that feels others as myself, so that I may know what is lacking in them and do the will of my Father in heaven. 

Then let us not confuse the inner life we live with the outer appearance of things.  For what we see with our eyes will surely pass away, yet what we hold in our heart is eternal.  So I ask my God to plant within my secret garden a love for wisdom and a spirit of truth and understanding, so that I may know the unseen things within me that matter.  Shine what is darkened and water what has withered so that I may flourish in my inner man even as my outer man is dying. 

Blessed be your children who appear upon the earth like flowers and come and go with the seasons, but I know in my heart that with God all ends are a start to an eternity of new beginnings.


by: Jason-John Swartz



It is when we willingly leave the self at the sacred door of that Great Unknown that all others can then reside within you as you.

We reasonably think that by crucifying the self for God we will restrict, limit or even annihilate ourselves , yet giving up your own heart as a willing sacrifice allows God through His Grace to open your soul to feeling everyone elses heart. You do not lose your heart, but gain a new heart that feels others as itself.

How often we think that we must perfect this heart of ours when in reality it is a gift from God that changes the hearts of men.  Dear lord everyday I offer my self as a willing sacrifice, so that daily my will may die and that your love not mine shall be resurrected within the secret chambers of my heart.  If lord it is through my merit and strength that such beauty has come to reside in the gardens of my heart, then let me boast and Glory in myself.    Yet I know that it is you Lord that has saved me from myself.  You have raised me from my concealment of you and made me as a child again at the feet of a loving father. 

Give me a heart that can love you like a son loves a father.  Change my heart so that I may love you the way you love me.  I beg of you to change my nature into a heart that pumps out love to others. I am tired father, of justifying and rationalizing my hatred and anger.  Give me a heart that loves my opposers and shine into my mind the Glory of your wisdom and understanding so that I may be adorned with a divine power within my heart to forgive and therefore love my opposers. 

I do not want to merely believe in Christ, but I pray that I may know Christ in me as my new heart and renewed mind.  I know what I am and who you can make me into so I am asking.  Give me the nature  of your son so that I to can love like Christ.  Give me the nature of your son so that through my new heart I may live in the heart of all mankind.   I ask for this as a fool who does not even know what he is asking for, because I have tried to do it on my own and its impossible.  Oh blessed suffering and endless failure that has shown me how much I need a savior.  Save me from myself, for I am a man speaking to you as a child.  Show me your ways father I am ready to listen.

by: Jason-John Swartz


Prayer for my Darn Body

While my lungs are heavy from years of sinful inhalations of toxic sense addiction, you Lord through your Love and Mercy have given breath to my soul through Your Holy Spirit within me.  While my flesh lays heavy a burden You give my soul the breath of Life when I need You.  What wonderful irony to feel short of breath from past indulgences and feel within my soul Your Holy Spirit who takes my breath away…. but in a good way.  Sure I hope for a miracle today, that my lungs may no longer burden me, but if I have a chose between praying for my lungs or praying for a lost soul to feel for the first time Your love, then I chose the latter.   So every day that its hard to breath I smile and know that today I prayed for someones elses life to be easier to live.  I was given a healthy body and I took advantage of it that’s the truth.  Just another story from another person who took the road most traveled to a party many never come back from.   So now I pray that through your Love that my burden be a blessing and my past stupidity make me all the wiser.  

I once thought that I had an iron stomach and party after party I drank my gut with no cares or worry.  Now that I don’t drink no longer my stomach is paying the tax collector for past abuses.  However day by day even with the bitterness in my belly a constant bother lately, your always there to give me courage and that part is always sweet. 

I just had to write this down and let it out a little.  I ain’t writing this to complain, Lord knows my case really is not that bad, but a little sickness can be good medicine for a sinner like me.  In all honesty I am such a stubborn ass that pain is the only way that God can get me to change my ways, cause looking back He gave me enough hints, but I was stubborn.  I am learning to listen to Him more and more these days.  Thanks God for not giving up on me when I had given up on myself.  Thats the God honest truth    It is amazing how I am happier now having all these silly health issues and having found God in my heart than I was when all my body was perfect but my soul could not find God.  I pray for all those people out in the world who are suffering physically and want you to know I am thinking of you.  I used to let the slightest physical problem destroy me with worry.  It is really hard to deal with illness without knowing that God is by your side.  I can really say that since God has touched me in my Life and I can feel Him, that he has not done anything to fix my body yet, but he sure has done miracles on my soul, and it makes the burdens that much easier.  So I thank you God for lifting me above the burdens of my flesh into the Spirit so I can find peace and joy daily.  May all of you find that peace that comes from our Living God and a direct relationship with HIM.       

Now with all that being said, can you fix my stuffy nose I am out of decongestants.  ( Just Joking)


By: Jason-John Swartz

What Is This Love?

I have seen what earthly standards call love.  I have seen a love that is conditional.  I have been that heart that loves only what is similar to it.  I have been limited to calling love a mere emotion.  I have been blinded by a love that’s not giving.

What is this precious Love that has touched me so profoundly?  Why do my words fail to explain what has occurred here?  I have been visited by a Love that has no reasons.  I have been given a gift that my prior actions do not deserve.   Truly this Love comes not from a selfish sinner such as myself, yet it has found a dwelling space within me.  Then again is it really in me, or have I been consumes by it?  Perhaps it is better to say that it is clearing a path so as to travel through me.  I have attained nothing, in fact I feel at times  that I have lost everything within it.  It is ever-changing in its manifestations which makes any attempt at expressing it pale in comparison to experiencing it.  It whispers in the silence of my heart saying, ” come see”.

I have been wounded in Love and now being freed from my own darkness I fall like dead before this Light within me.  From a slave to a willing servant I have been freed from my shackles and willingly put on new chains.  The chains of Love, that have bound me with a unceasing fervour.

This Love is not even an emotion, but an awareness.  It strips off all knowledge of things and bears the pure longing of ones soul and the burning desire within the heart of all things.  How can such a Love create barriers?  Indeed it does not even break the barriers between people but completely transcends them.  With this Love I rejoice at the saints, but my heart explodes even more before a sinner with such passion to the point of sharing in their sorrow and suffering.  I know the suffering of a soul lost in sin, and I bear witness to this Love that has lifted me up.  It is through this Love that I myself have come to love both the sinner and saint.  

What is this Love that has filled my soul, and brought this prideful sinner to his knees in awe?

I think I know who you are………

I think I know what you have done to me…..

All I can say is I Love you too.


By: Jason-John Swartz

The One, The Many, The Only

God…..The Infinite Totality and the Void of Nothingness.  All that is, was, and will be plus what could have been and never will be.  Center everywhere, circumference nowhere. Still these mere mortal words used to explain the seen realm fail to even properly attempt to point at what cannot be brought into limitation by words.

That being said let me fail miserably at expressing what has been revealed in The Spirit and should be read through The Spirit.

The Essence is at rest, and is eternal and unchanging.  It is concealment within concealment and from its hidden darkness Light comes forth.  The Essence is the One unmanifest from which all manifestations come from and return.  Alpha and Omega, Eternal, Resting, Infinity.

From the Above Essence comes all particular Emanations.  From the double concealment comes Gods First and Beloved Offspring.  The Light of Gods Wisdom.  The Light of Gods Wisdom was the First and Only Beloved Offspring of God and with the Light of Wisdom God Created all other manifestations.  The Light of Wisdom being the active and creative aspect of God in Oneness.  The Light of Wisdom stems from God  desiring to create a creature and fill it with His Godliness.  From God emanates Gods Light of Wisdom and through this beloved emanation all of creation was formed.  This offspring from God is the Light of Gods Wisdom, THE LIVING WORD.  

The Light of Wisdom has Created by the Power and will of God all of Creation and all created things within.  The Light of Wisdom Like a loving Mother has Created, Sustained and is developing all of  Creation.  This is the female aspect of the Light of Wisdom. 

We can easily see how all of nature and the seen Universe has been created in perfect Godly Wisdom.  Man is born with a nature that is opposite the Nature of Wisdom.  Man has developed his own form of wisdom completely opposite the Light of Gods Wisdom.  The Light of Wisdom, the Living Word descended into its own Creation as a fellow-man as an atonement for the appositeness of mans nature.  Through this action man can now ask for God to give them the Light of wisdom into their heart and soul.  This is a gift, which turns earthly man into spiritual man.  Selfish heart into Godly heart, foolish nature into wise nature.  Once this gift is received into an individual as a true yearning and desire for atonement, the Spirit of Godliness can enter and commune with man.  The Spirit is a Spirit of understanding of Gods will and the Beloved Son Is the Male aspect of the Light of Wisdom that penetrates mans heart. 

This is why in the old testament when man was still under Providence and development Wisdom was personified as female.  Once the atonement was made flesh and blood and given for mans completion,  Wisdom became known as the Only begotten Son of God.

This Light of Gods Wisdom is available to all those who desire it.  This Light of  Gods Wisdom can be invited into your heart and affect a life giving transformation of mans nature.  A true change of heart!!!  Those who seek for it will find it, and from this revelation one can come to know the Living God and become a loved and knowing child of GOD.  The Holy Spirit can dwell in those that have accepted the Light of Gods Wisdom into their hearts.  It is the Light that will save you from your earthly nature…… the root of all suffering.  It is available now and when you receive it all will become simple.

1 Corinthians 13:8

New International Version (NIV)

 8 Love never fails.

Simple enough for ya,  that goes for everyone.  Only sin will get destroyed not the souls ravaged by sin.  This is the Good News that has been shown to me through the Holy Spirit.  The Christ is the Light of Gods Wisdom and is all-inclusive and available now to all with a pure desire, and deep yearning and a cry for the Creator.

Ask for this gift and the Holy Spirit will witness to you the truth.  Come all ye sinners with your suffering and doubts.  Speak to God about your fears, shames and doubts.  Ask for this gift and let the Living God show you His Wisdom by direct revelation, that he has prepared for his beloved children from the beginning of the  foundations of creation.

God bless you all brothers and sisters, for we are one within the Oneness of our Gods loving Salvation.


by: Jason-John Swartz

Finding Peace Within…… While We Walk In The Chaos Without.

Do not be discouraged on your quest to self-realization, for when you stumble do not say to yourself that you have failed, instead you should say that you have not succeeded yet.  For is not a saint a sinner who did not give up?  Do not be hard on yourself, but be very hard on the things inside you that prevent you from achieving your goal. 

Like a child do not hesitate to ask “why”, and please do not settle for the answer, “just because”.  The answer will be found within you, but just remember it doesn’t come FROM you, remember where all true answers come from.     

Yes indeed it is difficult to practice, yet practice makes perfect.  Our soul is like learning to play an instrument.  Proper and regular practice allows gradual mastery.  Like a child who sounds horrible when he first harshly hammers at a toy guitar, the parent allows him to make noise because they know that it is the first steps to becoming a wonderful musician.

It is your yearning and desire with proper intention that will bring you good fruit when harvest time comes.  What merit does it bring a person to accumulate all sorts of knowledge and not use it for their own correction?  In fact wisdom used for anything else but the individuals own self correction only grows the arrogance and self-glory which separates them from true attainment.

What arises the strongest emotions in a parent?  When a child seemly achieves everything naturally without much effort?  Or when the child struggles and remains steadfast in their effort with a proper attitude toward failure as well as success?  Surely the heart flutters more in the latter case.  Let this perspective be the approach towards your spiritual development. 


By: Jason-John Swartz


Do what you must do to the best of your abilities and with your purest intentions, and then step back.  Do not even care about the results of your action.  Asking such questions such as, “did it bear fruit”.  Your actions will sometimes bear good fruit, other times bad fruit or no results at all.  Sometimes the fruitation is ripened into a beneficial result a long time after the seed of your action was planted.  So find pleasure in the intentions that your actions were done by, and do not expect any particular result.  It is in expectation of a certain result from your actions that bring disappointment and sorrow knocking at your door.  LIVE BY AND THROUGH YOUR HIGHEST INTENTION MOMENT PER MOMENT AND DO NOT LOOK BACK.  Do not look back because life is only in that present moment, therefore leave the ghosts of the past moment in peace. 

What does it benefit a person to look back at a good deed done?  Nothing good can come of that, but pride in oneself.  Pride is doomed from the start because it is built on a faulty foundation.  It is assumed that you have done something good yourself, instead of understanding that good fancied you at that moment and decided to flow through you.  What is a prideful heart?  Is it not-self adoration….like staring in the mirror too much?  Being happy for a job well done is not pride, however returning again and again to the memory of that job well done and speaking about it to others is the very definition of pride.  No good can come from it, and even great harm can be done with it.  How can someone infatuated with themselves, direct anything towards another at that moment?  No prides foundation is truly weak, and to build upon it will surely cause that whole thing to crumble.  Do your job and step back…..that path to true happiness and serenity.  Live by your highest intentions and you will be happy because your happiness does not depend on the result.  Caring about results is living on the surface of your being.  Caring about your intentions is living within the depths of  your being.  Define success by acting with the right intention, and do not define success by the results. 

Be joyful when wisdom visits you and you are used as a tool for its purpose.  However never believe that wisdom belongs to you, that is the true indication of a fool.  If you understand that you are being visited by wisdom then how can you take the credit for what it has done through you?  Really have you of yourself done anything at all?  Or did wisdom find a use for you and like the wind pushed you into action?  The same for all truly good and beneficial things that occur towards, through, and around you.  All beauty within you is not from you, but can infinitely dwell within you. 

How can wisdom, grace, or anything of virtue come visit you if you already believe that you have them? 


by: Jason-John Swartz

Wait, Reflect, Respond

Interactions with the outside world tends to create ripples and waves on the surface of our emotions.  It is best to wait and reflect for a few precious moments to allow these emotional responses to dissipate.  These moments of inner stillness can allow the proper response to surface into ones consciousness from the eternal depths of our being.

When we respond to quickly to the ever-changing  dance of life, we tend to be seduced by the sudden emotions which urge us into personifying them.  Once they make their appearance they soon return from where they came from and we are left feeling somewhat manipulated, frustrated and helpless to their intoxicating nature.

Allow the waves to settle and from the stillness after the storm your higher self may be able to manifest itself and say the right thing at the right time.

Like continual fluctuations on the surface of the ocean so vulnerable to the outside influence of the seasons and environment, we to become led by the winds of change and the turmoil occurring around us.  However the depth of the ocean remain ever calm and tranquil in its solitude.  We to can find our calm and tranquil nature when we reside in our own depths, and allow the waves at the surface of our lives to come and go with the seasons.   Do what must be done on your surface of being, but then step back from the chaos at the surface and return to your depths. 

Find the place within you that is not happy or sad but is at peace with what is.  Find a place within you that is not dependant on outside things.  Love is an awareness and happiness is a result of flowing with and not against the present moment.  All desired things come from a proper intention and attitude towards the Universe and the Creator. 

A good response is as sweet as homemade cookies, you just  have to let the response bake in the oven a little bit.


by: Jason-John Swartz

Commentary on “The Gospel of Thomas” excerpt 3

(3) Jesus said, “If those who lead you say to you, ‘See, the kingdom is in the sky,’ then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, ‘It is in the sea,’ then the fish will precede you. Rather, the kingdom is inside of you, and it is outside of you. When you come to know yourselves, then you will become known, and you will realize that it is you who are the sons of the living father. But if you will not know yourselves, you dwell in poverty and it is you who are that poverty.”

Translated by Thomas O. Lambdin

Everything has its roots in heaven Above, so that it can be said that the cause of everything is in heaven and the consequences are played out here on Earth.  So if a person wishes to effect any lasting change on his nature it will not be from any changes in this world, but one must journey deep within themselves to find the Kingdom within themselves.  This means that acts of fasting, chastity, repression and denial of the evil within a person are ways of trying to deal with the problem from this world.  However the solution is not from reforming your outward actions, but from finding the root of the problems.  Obviously it is wise to not manifest your dysfunction outwardly into this world, however while you restrict you actions the remedy must be applied on the root of the problem.  This is not by reformation of outward actions but from traveling deep within yourself.  There you will discover what you are and what you are not.  All the suffering and dysfunction that we see in ourselves and others stem from the same root problem, however  it just comes out in a myriad of different ways.  However no true healing can occur by trying to be a better person by our own will power.  We cannot effect change on a level of consciousness with the same level of consciousness that created the problem.  We need salvation from a consciousness Above our own.  However valiant the effort one makes the evil will at one point resurface with a vengeance.  This is because the root of the problem has not been recognized or cured.  By fighting the evil directly in this world with our own power we are merely pruning the leaves of this nasty bush, which in the long run makes the bush grow thinker.  No the journey within one self-will reveal the true nature that man is born into and the root of all of humanities suffering.  From this recognition of true spiritual state that we are in , we can come to a true yearning and need for the Creator to change our nature.  We of course must make the effort at following the path set out for us by the prophets and Jesus, however it is actually the yearning and desire for salvation which reforms us.  So have faith in the process and go fearlessly deep within yourself.  Attract with pure intention the Light unto yourself and see the barrier within yourself that does not allow the Light to enter.  See how your egoism is like mud in the pond of your true beingness, which prevents the reflection of the divine to appear through you. 

The true disciple of God will make efforts to find the Kingdom within, and with honest effort the Creator will first send help from Above which will show you how opposite you are to your true final and destined nature.  This part is very painful to a person…or should I say to the ego which is our false identity.  Then you will yearn for correction and thirst for redemption in the wilderness within you.  No longer a slave to this world and its kings of deception you will seek the Kingdom of your true Father.  You will seek for the Kingdom of God within you, but you will not find it yet.  You must walk the lonely journey away from your former self and beliefs, as the great tempter and deceiver within your will torment your thoughts and emotions.  You will walk deep into your very fabric of being,  towards the unknown…. your inner wilderness…. no longer wanting things of this world, and not yet tasting the cool waters of the Kingdom.  Be brave and steadfast!!  You will walk away from the ways of this world, however not yet able to find the Kingdom you will yearn more and more…..let that yearning grow.  The forces of darkness will push you to and fro and the sparks of Light will flicker like Lightning within the darkness.  Then be it 12 months or 12 years, like a blink of the eye you will enter the Kingdom within you.  It is the kingdom of God within you NOW.

Then you will feel within that emptiness that made you suffer so much during your spiritual exile the filling of that void with the Light of the Creator.  You will be filled with so much love, peace and serenity that you will no longer want anything from anybody, but desire only to express this fulfillment through acts of kindness and true bestowal.  From the peace and stillness within you wisdom will appear and understanding will flood your consciousness.  You will understand the one true God who controls everything and will flow with the one law of “Love Thy Friend As Thyself”, because behind the ego that pollutes our vessels is the one true nature of man.  We are all born into the original sin (EGO), however our true nature is not born from the union of flesh but from the Creator, which comes not from the womb of women but from the Creator which is the soul.   A true virgin birth.  All sustenance will come from Above and you will live within the desire for the Creator.  This small mustard seed of a desire has the potential of reaching the Creator and Governing all our other Earthly desires.  Your other desires will fall into balance and you will view your physical body as a vehicle which you will care for and respect.  However you will not prostitute it and defile it to unclean desires in an attempt to fill a spiritual void.  You will find what you thirst for with the desire for the Creator, let it lead you through the desert to the Kingdom within you.  Let you drink from the flowing rivers of heaven.  Let your spiritual eyes of wisdom and understanding be opened.  Let the Creator keep you straight with His left hand of judgement and His right hand of  Mercy.  Let your faith heal you and walk with the Lord using your left leg of submission to His will, and your right leg of praise and prayer for everlasting adhesion and renewal within HIM. 

Do not pray to change anything and anyone except for yourself.  The true key to the Kingdom.  Everthing is already perfection…. every person, event and obstacle has been put in your way so that you leave the working of this world and attain the true Upper system where all the good and evil fades aways into one perfect singularity.  You and me do not direct the flow, we can only chose to go with the flow.     

Once a connection with the Upper One is developed a person will begin to know when they are doing something against the Upper One because the connection becomes lost, then a correction in thought, intention, or action occurs and if it is in the flow of the Creator the connection returns.  Therefore the moment to moment revelation and concealment becomes like a governing compass to know what the Upper Providence is trying to tell you.  You cannot go against it because to one who has connected to the system, disconnection is like a spiritual death.  With this method a person become self-governed directly by the Upper One.


by: Jason-John Swartz 

So lets do the effort now and together and get back home.  The time is drawing near and the Upper providence is putting more and more pressure on all of humanity.  If you try and work with the flow you can attain the Kingdom in this lifetime.  If you go against the flow it will cause more and more suffering, which will force humanity to conform.  It is each of our own decision as to which hand we want to be corrected with.  The harsh left hand of judgement, or the merciful right hand which comes as help from Above to those true disciples who are trying

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