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What Is This Love?

I have seen what earthly standards call love.  I have seen a love that is conditional.  I have been that heart that loves only what is similar to it.  I have been limited to calling love a mere emotion.  I have been blinded by a love that’s not giving.

What is this precious Love that has touched me so profoundly?  Why do my words fail to explain what has occurred here?  I have been visited by a Love that has no reasons.  I have been given a gift that my prior actions do not deserve.   Truly this Love comes not from a selfish sinner such as myself, yet it has found a dwelling space within me.  Then again is it really in me, or have I been consumes by it?  Perhaps it is better to say that it is clearing a path so as to travel through me.  I have attained nothing, in fact I feel at times  that I have lost everything within it.  It is ever-changing in its manifestations which makes any attempt at expressing it pale in comparison to experiencing it.  It whispers in the silence of my heart saying, ” come see”.

I have been wounded in Love and now being freed from my own darkness I fall like dead before this Light within me.  From a slave to a willing servant I have been freed from my shackles and willingly put on new chains.  The chains of Love, that have bound me with a unceasing fervour.

This Love is not even an emotion, but an awareness.  It strips off all knowledge of things and bears the pure longing of ones soul and the burning desire within the heart of all things.  How can such a Love create barriers?  Indeed it does not even break the barriers between people but completely transcends them.  With this Love I rejoice at the saints, but my heart explodes even more before a sinner with such passion to the point of sharing in their sorrow and suffering.  I know the suffering of a soul lost in sin, and I bear witness to this Love that has lifted me up.  It is through this Love that I myself have come to love both the sinner and saint.  

What is this Love that has filled my soul, and brought this prideful sinner to his knees in awe?

I think I know who you are………

I think I know what you have done to me…..

All I can say is I Love you too.

2012-2-12

By: Jason-John Swartz

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The Creator: A Blueprint For Parenting – A Blueprint to Life

As a parent I have on occasion been to self-absorbed in what I was doing and sent the kids off to play when they wanted to spend time with me.  I am not proud of it, but sometimes we just get self-absorbed and think of our pleasure first.  I’ve actually done that sometimes because I wanted to read up on spirituality or scripture.   How ironic is that?   Then I realized that the Creator treats me exactly like I treat others.  So here I am trying to get closer to the Father Above, by telling my kids to leave me alone and go do something.  Then I wonder why I can’t feel his presence within me sometimes.  Its like He told me to leave Him alone too and go play by myself.  The Creator will always present himself to you the way you treat others.  That is not a fact, just my experience with how life seems to interact with me.

It is for that reason that I have started to try to use my Father Above as a blueprint for parenting.  My father Above shows patience with all my silly antics, so I should be that way with my kids.  I have done so many mistakes in my life, over and over again, yet my Father Above still draws me close to Him and forgives me when my heart repents.   When I really need the Creator he has never left my side, so I will be darn sure to be by my children when they need me.  I reflect the love that my father Above puts into my heart back to Him, by loving my children with that joy.  In actuality I imagine it is just me and the Creator, and all other people, my close family, friends, strangers are the Creator in disguise and he will treat me as I have treated the least of them. 

I remember when I was in total concealment of the Creator, and I was scared, sad and tired.  This was during a depression right before I called out to the Creator to save me, which he did in his time.  Thinking back again at my lowest point I felt dead inside, and it was hard to be a great dad even if I wanted to be because I was empty inside.  I went through the motions hoping it did not show, hoping my darkness inside did not rub off on their innocence.  I think I played the part but looking back nothing was radiating from my heart at that point.  Thats when I came to the conclusion that you can’t do a darn thing right without a strong foundation with the Upper Force.   

I think we have no love of our own, it is all the Creators.  The love that is in our hearts is the Creators love for us and we share that love with others.  He gives that love to all people and if we share it with others we get more of that wealth.  I truly believe that the human heart in the end will be granted from Above the capacity to hold all of the Creators love and that in the end our hearts will become the Holy Grail that holds Eternity itself within it.

If the Creator’s love for us is unconditional, then I must love others in any condition that they may present themselves.  He never gave up on me and I was in a pretty bad condition within my heart.  Having lived through that I can’t hate so-called bad people anymore, cause they just seem sad to me.  The Creator lifted me up when I was in that lowest point in my life.  I have felt his presense save me when I was at my most wicked and ignorant states of spiritual poverty.  Sure he let me dig myself a real nice hole, but when I truely repented within my heart he saved me everytime.  So I will make darn sure that I will never kick someone who is down.  No matter how “BAD” they appear to me.  Of course we don’t have to like the egoism at the surface, but we must realize that behind that egoism is the soul.  Each person on this Earth has within them a true potential for unconditional love to dwell within them.  Maybe if we all stopped hating the spiritually impoverished they would have a chance for greatness.  We must still love the soul hidden behind our enemies.  Sometimes certain souls just need to experience what God is not, so that when they do experience Him they realize the true gift that they have just received.  Maybe a saint is a sinner who never gave up.  If my love for others is conditional, then I will sense that the Creators love for me has conditions too.

I realized that being a parent is a wonderful way of understanding the physics of the Upper ONE.

2011-11-23

By: Jason-John Swartz

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