I have struggled and yearned to understand my purpose and the meaning of life, it was a constant void that I felt needed to be filled. This naturally lead me to search basically all faiths, with a hunger almost as vital as the air I breath. I initially saw great differences between faiths however the separations that I was seeing at that point was actually the separation within myself. However I knew that if I was really seeking for my Father, with a pure intention and not as a method to appear superior or wise before others then the Creator would lead me through the darkness to HIS Light. I remember the day that some sort of inner veil within myself melted away and I no longer saw many, but only HIM. From that day He has revealed Himself within my heart evermore like a fountain within me. I sometimes have to hide it or people might think something is off with me.
It is like a tiny spiritual seed that I never knew existed, was born within my Manger of animalistic desires. My selfishness still the Pharoah of my Earthly desires for my own Glory, remained King of my thoughts and actions. However that spiritual desire for my father silently grew amidst the growing darkness within me. The growing darkness perhaps sensing this potential appearing in me waged war on my future potential for salvation Like Moses I began to realize that I was a slave to my own selfish will to receive only for myself. Egoism that Pharoah within me trapping me in my own Egypt of worldly pleasures and indulgencies. Only my growing faith in my Father allowed him to part my Red Sea and for the first time and to begin traveling this world between the waves of Faith and Understanding of that great Sea called life.
Now it seems that the once vulnerable child of a desire for my Father Above, within me has become a man. This force sent by my Father through HIS MERCY AND GRACE has voyaged within me, healing my spiritual blindness so that I my see that all the Earth sings GLORY, GLORY to our Father and that there is nothing but HIM. My savior gave my crippled intention the ability to walk towards my father in thought and action. This man went to many villages within my great land and opened my ears to the voice of our Father within my ever-expanding heart. The demonic thoughts and feeling were sent away from my consciousness so that I could silently here the whispers of wisdom wash over my body.
Without the Creator planting that seed of redemption within me I would be forever more at the gates of my own hell, never knowing the true Life that my Father desired to place within me. I am only a vessel, for that GOODNESS and without HIS filling I am poverty itself. So because of what has been given to me, it is with Joy that I lay my own selfish glory for myself that I worship so my days of my exile on the Cross as a sacrifice to the one Above who saved me. So that my selfish intention for myself my die and I be reborn into Joyful service to GOD.
I see the bible as the very story of my own soul, and it is my Father who gave me the key to reading his message.
By: Jason-John Swartz